ABANDON INSTINCT. I WAS
IN A LOOP OF A VISCOUS CIRCLE.
IT WAS A TO HAVE
YOU.
forgiveness
I finally experienced what those people must have felt like when they were about to commit suicide.I thought i already did, but I guess I was ignorant back then. What I felt today, I cant really describe it. I've really disappointed my parents over and over again, especially my dad. I don't know how to face them after this has happened. I dread the feeling of being home again, and seeing the disappointment on his face. Felt like being alone, away from everybody, where no one can see me. I wanted to call SP, but she was having school and I didn't want her to worry. Controlled my feelings from the station, till I reached my block. I wonder how it must feel like when a person dies. I cant forgive myself, and I never will.