Counting down 2 more days to Parents' Day! A song's been stuck in my head all day. Its called 'When you look me in the eyes' by Jonas Brothers. Yesterday was pretty happening. I met an old friend, made a new one, learned to fold roses, and sang with a group of people on the way for dinner. All when I thought I would be grouchy for the whole day because my gums were sore. I guess life works in wonders which we will never know.
-I find my paradise, when you look me in the eyes.
the wonders of life
my solace (:
Everything's fine at the moment, I guess. At least, until Parents' Day. But for the moment, all I have to worry about is my sore throat. I think my tonsils are swollen, and it is damn uncomfortable. All the crying yesterday must have done it, no doubt. I only have myself to blame for losing my phone, but oh well, whats done cannot be undone. No point in me crying over split milk. As for my results, well..I'll just accept the marks I get, no matter what it is. I've already put in effort, and that's what counts, right? Oh, and I'm really grateful to my SP for comforting me yesterday. Thanks a lot babe! I love u <33
-Ti Amo
-Ti Amo
forgiveness
I finally experienced what those people must have felt like when they were about to commit suicide.I thought i already did, but I guess I was ignorant back then. What I felt today, I cant really describe it. I've really disappointed my parents over and over again, especially my dad. I don't know how to face them after this has happened. I dread the feeling of being home again, and seeing the disappointment on his face. Felt like being alone, away from everybody, where no one can see me. I wanted to call SP, but she was having school and I didn't want her to worry. Controlled my feelings from the station, till I reached my block. I wonder how it must feel like when a person dies. I cant forgive myself, and I never will.
the reason (:
It has dawned on me that the amount of time i have left is becoming increasingly little. For the second time in my life since my sec 2 days, I'm worried. Maybe this is the cause of my insomnia, but only a part of it i guess. There's still another reason:somebody's been running through my brain during those sleepless nights. Yep, him, him and him. You're always on my mind, baby.
-Ti Amo
-Ti Amo
ESCAPE
Can't seem to escape from reality
can't seem to run away
I go the other direction
but I'm back to where I was yesterday
I know I made a thousand promises
that I couldn't keep
I know I said I would be strong
but deep inside I'm weak
there were days when I couldn't cope with myself
and I would give up before I even start
I could never seem to find an answer
even when I listened to my heart
I can't seem to escape reality
I try to leave it all behind
but I'm back to where I was yesterday
but maybe tomorrow will be different
maybe I'll find the right path to take
where I can walk away from everything
where I can finally escape