Take me somewhere, just us two.

2010-05-09T00:58:00.000+08:00

Watched it w/ chewy yesterday. It was pretty good, chick flick. But the part where the woman was giving birth was just.. horrifying. uggh. But still, i'd rate it 3/5 (:

I like that feeling when its about to rain and I'm looking up at the sky, watching birds spreading their wings, riding on thermals. Serenity and peace, not to mention the gusts of cool air amongst all this humidity. Dont you?(:

2010-05-03T18:33:00.000+08:00

Stop it, its not doing you any good.

Say hi to the uglyduckling

2010-04-14T22:03:00.000+08:00

We see ourselves too much, so much that we cant judge ourselves anymore.
Like the photo on my ez-link, no matter how I look at it, I dont seem to find the cuteness that people see. Instead, I just see,me.
Its true that kids who're cute when young grow up looking ugly, isnt it? Atleast in my case, its true.
I went to the bank today, and the guy who saw my ez-link went like, "are you sure this is you?"
I was really tempted to say, "yeah, but something went wrong in the process of growing up."
Even momm says I look ugly, how sad is that? ):

Foryou

2010-04-11T22:00:00.000+08:00

I'm about halfway melted from today. I dislike heat, and having a whole day of it is just about able to make me go crazy. Home is still my best escape from all the heat.
And, I'm still not recovered yet. Bummer ):

It doesnt take a picture for me to remember you, the memory of you is fresh, embedded in my mind as if it were only yesterday that I last saw you. But why is it, that I remember the sadness in your eyes, the loneliness more than your smile, or your laughter? I wished you didnt have to leave, to go to a place so far away from me.
I miss you, grandpa

Iwannabenice.

2010-03-31T22:40:00.000+08:00

Its time i faced up to it, and stop running away.

One down, one more to go.

Thinking of the best solution and hoping it works.

Good luck to me(:

Sigh~

2010-03-26T22:06:00.004+08:00

My life seems to be full of misunderstandings, doesnt it?

I just feel like getting everyone together to sort this out once and for all.

Talk it out, get it over with, and move on.

There are some things that I wished I knew sooner,

Instead of knowing about it only now.

Worse still, not being able to do anything about it.

And when friends are involved, it totally sucks to the max.

& i dont get it.

Yes, i know that you want to portray youself as a nice guy in her eyes.

But there's no need to lie and shift the blame to someone else, is there?

To make it seem like you are innocent, does that make you happy?

Lies, time and again.

You know it in your heart, there's nothing more for me to say.

To future manfriend

2010-03-26T01:17:00.000+08:00

.

"

2010-03-22T22:28:00.001+08:00

Love looks not with the eyes, but with the mind.

-William Shakespeare

Mistake.

2010-03-21T15:33:00.000+08:00

The only mistake I made, was to realise the growing distance between us, and allowing it to happen.

But I'm glad I did, and all else that happened after that. Because otherwise, I would never have known the type of person you really are.

"

2010-03-07T19:10:00.008+08:00

" Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep. Wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you’re just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have you. The one who turns to his friends and says, ‘that’s her.’ "

I wonder if i'll ever find this guy.

Stop.

2009-12-23T00:09:00.003+08:00

Dont tell me I'm important to you. As far as I know, I may bloody well be near the bottom of the list. If someone were that important to you, your actions will show even if you dont tell them. The thought of doing something for the person you like counts more than actually doing the thing itself.
And please, dont make promises you cant keep. Dont tell me lies, over and over again. Dont hold my hand time and again if you dont mean it, its not funny. Stop telling me we're so near yet so far, stop giving me bullshit, stop using me. I'm not a fucking plaything that you can toy with.

this post is just about certain people and a small portion of my frustration, not directed at any particular person unless you're guilty of it

Sheesh.

2009-12-05T17:58:00.013+08:00

AWAKE&andPISSED @7am

SO you're getting married. BIG DEAL!
There's absolutely no need for the loud blaring of horns &aimless chattering at 7 in the morning.
What'd you want, the whole estate to witness your marriage??
You probably got it.

for goodness sake, spare some thought for the people sleeping.
Its a SATURDAY!!

Birthday Celebration! ♥

2009-11-26T23:20:00.011+08:00

Okay, a little update(:

Advanced birthday celebration yesterday((:
It was meant to be a surprise, but some people discussed it on tagboards & facebook, and I saw it by accident.
Met chewy first to take bus there, and then carmen at marina square, followed by vicky, tab, then deon, fadzly & wh. Edward&siying met us during lunch. Had late lunch at Fish&co @ suntec, and the super embarrassing birthday prank(tab, i bet you're reading this &smiling to yourself). Edward kept trying to get the mudpie and smash it on my face ): & chewy tried to snatch the plate from me! ):):

After that, walked around & carmen, chewy, siying and anil chipped in to get me a pair of shoes. Then starbucks w/ carmen&chewy, cabbed to carmen's busstop& bus home w/ chewy.

Pictures!(:

happy three friends(:

present from tabitha(:

present from chewy, carmen, siying & anil(:

Had a great time, thank you guys :D
& to chewy, siying, anil, carmen for the shoes.
tab, thanks for the shirt &card, no thanks to the flyers :P

...

2009-10-22T22:24:00.004+08:00

I wonder why I keep getting this feeling inside of me.
Something that I cant explain nor comprehend.

& it finally drizzled after a hot hot day.
My favourite weather and of course, time of the day.
Never fails to put a smile on my face (:

how i wish it could be like this all year round.

2009-10-09T23:04:00.002+08:00

Woooh, exams are finally over.
& i think i did badly for today's paper =(

I suggested going to udders after school. Didnt really feel like eating, actually.
It was only just so that i wouldnt have to face the empty house,
when the fear would make itself more known.
Coward, i know.

Anyhow, its time for shopping and fun till the short break is over and the nightmare starts.
Enjoy while I still can, right?

2009-09-23T20:19:00.001+08:00

i feel like everyone has a part of me, and the little things that they do affect me.
i wished it wasnt this way.
that i wouldnt feel so vulnerable, so needy for something to stop the pain
that i would be able to hold myself together, all on my own.
that all the other wounds wouldnt start hurting too when a new one appears.

quote

2009-09-19T13:18:00.010+08:00

" If all else perished, and he remained, I should still continue to be ; and if all else remained, and he annihilated, the universe would turn to a mighty stranger."

Stupidity.

2009-09-17T21:59:00.005+08:00

Why do I always make the same mistakes even though I know that it'll hurt me in the end?
I'm such a sucker for pain, for punishment.

I womder how much more stabbing this heart can take.
How much more bleeding, how broken can a person ever be?
Can the wounds ever heal completely?

And I dont even know why I bother to try anymore.
Maybe part of me just hopes that one day you'll be different.
That you wouldnt be a close friend now and a complete stranger next.
You held me high and stole my pain ; returned it doubled, and watched me fall. hard.

Hello, bitches

2009-09-15T19:29:00.000+08:00

Had a tiring day today. As if that wasnt enough, some bitches still had to pick a fight with us on the way back.
Pardon the word, but yea, fucking ah lians. Who think that they are so great.
Come on laa, little girls. Please take a look at yourselves in the mirror before trying to pick a fight, okay?
And while you're at it, try to pick on somebody your age, and probably the same level of maturity too.
Stupid kids.

I have no idea what to say (:

2009-07-31T20:43:00.001+08:00

Been busy with exams and school,and prolly a bit of fb too i guess.
That I've been neglecting my blog.
Plus the fact that I seldom use the Internet.
Oh well, parent teacher meeting tomorrow.
I hope there arent bad comments about me. ><
And I have no idea what happened, the tabs for my font and colours are gone.
So I'm truly sorry if you cant see this post.
Guess I'll just have to make do with this, then.
Back to my dinner, 'm eating halfway.
Toodles!

I'm back! (:

2009-04-26T16:46:00.004+08:00

Its been a longg loongg time since i've been here!
updating in progress...... (:

band prac band prac band prac!
almost everyday, till 8.30pm.
its draining my energy off, && i always fall asleep after dinner. ):
makes me fat, ya'knw. D:
butbut! the satisfaction of us improving is always there to keep me going. (:

On April 22nd, went for dinner with Randy, Joshy, Dawn, Tab, and Edward.
came home, and drannk this. (:

it's still my favourite kind of rum. ((:

&& I saw Jason Zong yi and Chua Kian Wei on the way to school!
It was damn awkward >.<
but its nice to see them after a year. (:

Okiedokies, I gotta go.
I'll try my best to update, okayys?
especially to you, BK!
never update your own blogg stil wanna say me. ((:

❤Loves!

-the difference between ordinary and extraordinary is the lil EXTRA! :D

To you

2009-03-28T23:00:00.005+08:00

Went to watch confessions of a shopaholic today, the movie was great. Something's been bothering me since yesterday, though. And i guess i gotta say this.

Friend,

Ever since we started texting again, you seemed different from before. You dont seem to care anymore, unlike last time, and even though you say you enjoy texting me, it just doesnt feel that way to me. The replies that you give.. I'm sure you know the difference, too. Which is when I realised: you dont need me anymore. It's somebody else you need now, and I dont blame you for that. Considering the way you say I treated you in the past, you could've turned your back on me and walked away at the first second, but you didnt, and I'm grateful for that. I guess I should be contented with what I have, and accept the fact that maybe things wouldnt be the same anymore. I'm sorry for the attitude in the past, I'm serious when I said I dont remember a thing. And lastly, thank you. For acting like you care, even though I know you dont really give a damn. Thank you.

-SP, thanks for being there for me. I still think that wasnt the best place to talk, though. (:

2009-03-16T11:55:00.004+08:00

Bleeding Love - Leona Lewis

-when you've been hurt time and again, you'll learn to heal faster.

twilight-the movie

2008-12-19T23:50:00.003+08:00

Okay,i admit i was excited about watching this movie after school today.I was interested to find out how the movie would go after reading the book, to see if the characters and scenes were any different from the ones that formed in my mind while I was reading.I have to say,after finishing the whole series, the book was pretty good.although sadly, I cant say the same for the movie.The movie felt kinda rushed to me,and it was kind of messy.To all the people out there who've read the book: you'll be disappointed by the movie. To all those who have not read the book yet, :watch the movie before you read it. Seems like everyone who watched the movie first had a good impression of it.But I have to say, Carlislie Cullen is way hot, which was something I didnt expect.Gave me a shock,too.Definitely one of the goodlooking guys in the movie.And of course,Edward Cullen,too. (=

-hope you had fun today. :D
p.s. btw, the starry sky looks really pretty tonight.

twilight

2008-11-27T22:19:00.002+08:00

Well,I'm supposed to be doing my report which I have to hand up tomorrow,but I'm not in the mood for it.I can feel the night calling out to me,wanting me to go into its embrace.Besides, I've just finished 'twilight', and it isnt as good as I'd hoped it would be.The images of Edward Cullen and Isabella that have formed in my mind while reading the book are also pretty different to the casts,in a way.I'm having a hunch that the book would be better than the movie.I've heard that the second book is pretty boring,but I'm going to read it,anyway.There's no way I'm going to let the opinions of others change my opinion of the sequel even before I've even started.

Anyway,back to the book.I've always been fascinated by vampires,and I have totally no idea.The first time i got interested in them was when I was young,and there was this drama on vampires.Since then,I've always had a liking for them.I would want to be one,if given the choice to.Somehow, the night always intrigues me.I always feel more alert and refreshed during the night.Wouldnt it be better if we slept during the day and become active during the night?The only disadvantage that I can only think of is the huge electricity bills that the people would consume. (=

Arrgh.I wanna go out right now,but I doubt my parents would even allow me to step out of the house,considering the late hour.Its torturing,and especially so, right now.I secretly wish for the day when I'd be able to sleep in the open,without anything obstructing my view of the heavens, looking up at the stars and feeling the cool night wind blow at my face, sending me off into a peaceful dream.(fingers crossed here!) :x

黑夜

2008-11-25T23:50:00.003+08:00

夜总是给我一种不同的感受

它把我内心最深处的情感带出来

让我真情流露

独自一个人在深夜里

能够不受约束的冷静思考

和早晨温暖的阳光比起来似乎是两种截然不同世界

我喜欢夜晚望着天上的月亮和星星

我喜欢夜晚传来的阵阵凉风

在迎面吹来的风能够闻到微湿的空气中

带着清新的味道

停下脚步

站在广阔的天空下闭上眼睛深深吸一口

所有的烦恼仿佛已被抛到九霄云外

无优无律的感觉哪怕只是昙花一现

都能够让我嘴角不自觉上扬

2008-11-17T22:06:00.003+08:00

I'm pissed.
so fucking pissed at myself for even forgetting something so important.
exasperation.
and the fucking tears wont stop falling.
one pathetic month of enduring.
forget the upcoming birthday
i'll never forget this year's.
this could well be my last chance
and i totally blew it.
so near,yet so far
maybe our paths will never cross again.

HSM3

2008-10-28T20:50:00.002+08:00

Watched high school musical 3 with the gang today.Raymond joined us.The show was okay I guess,not as nice as I hoped.After the show, everyone was kinda high.Jo and Limei were singing.Hahah.Slacked the whole day in school, except for econs and mob lessons.Fingers crossed,and hope that the appeal gets in.

I was watching the show, and somehow I thought of you.I wish you could be here, right by my side, holding me in your arms. maybe loving you was just a huge mistake that I made.

rainy thursday

2008-10-23T21:11:00.003+08:00

Sorry for not updating my blog,been having exams and was lazy.Hahah.okayy,i shall update on this week then.

Monday was the promotional exercise,no school,so B1B5 had an outing.ate lunch,went lan shop,then watched 'burn after reading'.The show seriously sucks.none of us understood what it was abt except for the many vulgarities.after that,dinner and home.

Tuesday,back to school.got back all the exam papers.after school,went lan with bryan,aaron,weichong,raymond,lynette,nicolette and joanna.my third time playing cs,but i played kinda well on that day.luck,i guess.raymond and me kept shooting at each other.hahah.Stupid iceman.

Wednesday.school learning trip,went to OCS.sad to say,we didnt meet any good-looking guys.However,the games part was fun.I used a rifle for the first time in my life.fun,fun,fun.after that, went for dinner with nicolette at swensens.we couldnt finish the fries and fried portebello mushrooms,and neither of us wanted to eat it,so we played 5 10.Hahah.nicolette ended up being the one to finish off the last mushroom.Both of us were so full after dessert we could hardly walk. Hahah.

Just read a post by aaron to B1.It was really touching.I have to say,I cried.it kind of amazes me how a guy like aaron could say something so heartfelt at times.I'm gonna miss this class,plus the B5 ppl so much.I wonder if i will be able to sleep later when my fate is going to be decided tmr.Hopefully i'll have good news tmr.i'll pray hard.

-how nice it would be if time could stop now.but it aint.

take me away

2008-09-01T12:49:00.002+08:00

I just hate my freaking life.
why cant people just stop looking at each other through prejudiced eyes?
here I am,
trying to change myself for the better.
It aint easy,
but I'm putting in my best effort.
but whats the point
when they refuse to acknowledge it?
whats the point
when everything just comes to nought?
maybe I've committed too many sins in my past life
which is why my life's a mess right now.
If that is the case,then please
take me away.
cos I'm just dying a little more each day
I just hope
it'll be soon.

happy teachers' day

2008-08-29T18:33:00.008+08:00

Skipped school today. Stayed at home, decided not to go alphs. Chatted with friends over the phone, went online, chatted somemore. Everything was fine and, dang. I suddenly missed you.badly. I wonder how it happens. It just comes as a fast rocket, hitting me when i'm defenceless. You plummet straight into my heart, like a bullet i cant remove, lodged deep within.
Everything you do just catches my attention. Your smile, your laughter, your pain just makes me want to love you even more. I've fallen for you - all over again.

-you'll learn to let go,eventually.have patience.

2008-08-18T22:50:00.003+08:00

I've always wanted to know nothing but the truth.But the fact is, truths are never nice.and they are never easy to handle.I should have realised my mistake long ago, but i didnt. Hearing the truth almost broke me into half,but this was what i wanted to hear,and i have to accept it. Its time i changed to a better me. i just hope that i can get a second chance.Can I?

Memorable Friday

2008-08-16T15:57:00.005+08:00

had fun in school, playing some game i just learnt and hitting lotsa people.especially meng kian. he was so guillable! me and nic had a fun time teasing him from school all the way to orchard.after school,went to celebrate Joanna's birthday.I have to admit, it was the best birthday celebration i've ever attended.I'm hoping to have one on my birthday too.hahah.almost had a sore throat from all that shouting and singing at kbox. after that, me, nicolette, bryan, aaron and meng kian went somewhere to do something discreet. hahah. went home with Meng Kian, and i have to say, stop trying to act like a nerd la! hahah.what happened on the way home, i'm keeping mum in order not to satisfy some people's curiousity.haha! (:

-seeing u there made me feel...whole again.

in a nutshell

2008-08-12T00:01:00.004+08:00

promos are around the corner, and I havent started studying. so, from tomorrow onwards, i will be night studying with nicolette until 9pm.oh joy.anyhow, nicolette is helping my with this post, talking in my ear and making me type out word for word what she tells me.According to her, I am supposed to be amazed at the amount of brain juice that I have.hahah. for someone who is watchig the volleyball olympics, she's certaintly got a load of comments.okay, right back to myself.me, me and me.Genting's a bore, especially when you're there with your parents and your granny. I have to say,12 hours to genting is a little too extreme. it made me waste 2 days of my life, and I missed the basketball match, which was just as lousy, really. buck up, people.

the wonders of life

2008-07-23T18:10:00.005+08:00

Counting down 2 more days to Parents' Day! A song's been stuck in my head all day. Its called 'When you look me in the eyes' by Jonas Brothers. Yesterday was pretty happening. I met an old friend, made a new one, learned to fold roses, and sang with a group of people on the way for dinner. All when I thought I would be grouchy for the whole day because my gums were sore. I guess life works in wonders which we will never know.

-I find my paradise, when you look me in the eyes.

my solace (:

2008-07-18T20:30:00.005+08:00

Everything's fine at the moment, I guess. At least, until Parents' Day. But for the moment, all I have to worry about is my sore throat. I think my tonsils are swollen, and it is damn uncomfortable. All the crying yesterday must have done it, no doubt. I only have myself to blame for losing my phone, but oh well, whats done cannot be undone. No point in me crying over split milk. As for my results, well..I'll just accept the marks I get, no matter what it is. I've already put in effort, and that's what counts, right? Oh, and I'm really grateful to my SP for comforting me yesterday. Thanks a lot babe! I love u <33

-Ti Amo

forgiveness

2008-07-17T17:48:00.003+08:00

I finally experienced what those people must have felt like when they were about to commit suicide.I thought i already did, but I guess I was ignorant back then. What I felt today, I cant really describe it. I've really disappointed my parents over and over again, especially my dad. I don't know how to face them after this has happened. I dread the feeling of being home again, and seeing the disappointment on his face. Felt like being alone, away from everybody, where no one can see me. I wanted to call SP, but she was having school and I didn't want her to worry. Controlled my feelings from the station, till I reached my block. I wonder how it must feel like when a person dies. I cant forgive myself, and I never will.

the reason (:

2008-07-10T22:38:00.003+08:00

It has dawned on me that the amount of time i have left is becoming increasingly little. For the second time in my life since my sec 2 days, I'm worried. Maybe this is the cause of my insomnia, but only a part of it i guess. There's still another reason:somebody's been running through my brain during those sleepless nights. Yep, him, him and him. You're always on my mind, baby.

-Ti Amo

ESCAPE

2008-07-01T12:03:00.008+08:00

Can't seem to escape from reality

can't seem to run away

I go the other direction

but I'm back to where I was yesterday

I know I made a thousand promises

that I couldn't keep

I know I said I would be strong

but deep inside I'm weak

there were days when I couldn't cope with myself

and I would give up before I even start

I could never seem to find an answer

even when I listened to my heart

I can't seem to escape reality

can't seem to run away

I try to leave it all behind

but I'm back to where I was yesterday

but maybe tomorrow will be different

maybe I'll find the right path to take

where I can walk away from everything

where I can finally escape

世界唯一的你

2008-06-26T02:27:00.004+08:00

因为你我的世界多了快乐

但同时也增添了悲伤

生活里的点点滴滴甚至是芝麻绿豆再普通不过的事情

都能让我想到你

那些许许多多的小动作迷人的笑容

让我嘴角不自觉上杨

第一次看见你憔悴的脸疲惫的眼神却还勉强露出笑容

我真的很心疼但却爱莫能助

也因为你我深深的体会到

原来爱一个人是那么的幸福

谢谢你让我感受到这份喜悦

我爱你